Dabawenyang Iska

now i know why i get addicted to teenage drama shows like the oc and one tree hill. they have cheesy lines that fits an event or two in real life. my life. ur life.

cheesy line no. 1:
source: the oc
ur never gonna get over the pain, u’ll just get used to it.

-so true. when u get hurt, doesnt matter if its from a broken relationship, friendship or unrequited love–the pain stays, dulled after a while but its there. and as time goes by u get used to it.

cheesy line no. 2:
source: one tree hill

a kiss always means something.

-oh yeah. a peck is just a peck but a kiss? heck, no. doesnt matter what circumstances ur in. a kiss is a kiss. driven by emotion, passion or excitement…u say… but after awhile…ask urself.. ‘y did i choose to kiss him?’ hehehehe.

cheesy line no. 3:
source: desperate hauzwives
(ok…this line isnt as cheesy as the previous two…but for the sake of this entry lets place it under the category of cheesy lines.)

the greatest lie is the lies we tell ourselves at night… lies we tell in the hope that come morning  it will all come true.

-dont we all do this? sigh. hurts. truth hurts.

more of cheesy lines nxt tym. this is too depressing.

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it may be a line so old that if someone blurts it out you’ll probably smirk and say ‘yeah right, whatever’ but the heck its a good excuse, a good reason. for what? i dunno. depends on a lot of things. in my case…it is because i choose to leave things to the fates. does it hurt? no. not really. i dont think im capable of hurting that much. over the years i’ve learned to numb myself…as a friend used to say, its a wall and its quite hard to scale it. but sometimes… when i let go of my thoughts…i think of things and what could happen and what could have happened… so many scenes flash in my mind. hundreds of them but one or two stands out. and im losing sleep over it.

whatever will be will be.things are just not ok for me, for him, well, for everyone. there are laws we cannot break…its been there even before we met and i wouldn’t risk hurting anyone just because you and i are feeling restless and bored. maybe, just maybe, if we meet again in another 3 or 5 years…when we’re a little older and mature? though i doubt it. who knows? but right now…let leave it to the fates. i chose this path. go with urs…and let us leave all else to the fates.

whatever will be will be.

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obviously i cant sleep. i have too many things going on in my mind. sometimes i have the feeling that i think and contemplate too much and yet there are times when i feel like im obtuse to practically everything around me. sigh. i really am twisted inside. i am worried and yet im doing practically nothing to assuage that worry.

another sleepness night… and it may be all because of nothing.

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3 days ago i was feeling ok… then came the headaches. i thought it was just the sudden change of weather. damn mountainous areas for their very unpredictable weather. then came the coughs…once or thrice a day at first but lately the constant weezing of my lungs bugs my ears every 5 minutes, causing me to stoop and droop and before i’d know it, im gonna fall flat on my face. okay. exag. but what the heck. i feel like my life is sucked out of me everytime i cough. last is fever. yeah yeah. i know its the flu. stupid of me for not figuring that out quickly. then i could have done something about it. but i’ve been very busy lately. there too many things going on in my life right now that i forget to take care of myself.

if only the weather would cooperate. but no, the gods just wont allow it. i bet they have fun everytime they see us confused about the sudden change of weather. get this:

9am: i go out of my room to check the weather outside and see what kinds of clothes and gear i should prepare. you see, here in mintal, we dont have the luxury of having jeepneys all the time, how much more with taxis. sigh. all we have are the habal habal with their kaskaserong drivers who have no helmets, no licenses and no insurance at all. and yep, i still do wonder why i put up with all of those just to be in this supposedly ‘premier university’.

10 am: i go to school. its warm and dry, in other words, the sun’s up, i dress comfortably-jeans, tank and slippers. i thought of bringing my jacket with me but decided not to because its too bulky and it was too warm anyway.

11:30am: lunch. still warm. but i could feel the cold drift once in a while. i hope to god it wouldnt rain and thinking of whether to skip school or not just to avoid the possibily of being soaked. then i remember that i’ve reached the maximum no. of absences allowed. damn. no choice.

4:00pm: wlang hiya. punyeta. it rained. and im soaked. shivering, i go home, and the next day i feel so bad i could hardly get up. no jeepney in sight, no taxi here either. no wonder i get sick a lot during the rainy days.

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